Have you ever felt like everything you've worked for in your life, everything you've strived to gain, all the relationships you've carefully kept, and all the good things that you have are slowly but surely breaking away and falling apart? like little by little its all going down the chute and into the fires? thats how ive been feeling lately. as if nothing is solid, nothing is permanent. i've been doubting myself, my work, my friends, my family, everything. it just seems like its all going to go away in the end and as if i shouldnt even try, even though i know that im just worrying myself over nothing. maybe its just what i did on easter. who knows. maybe it's all been leading to this. well, no matter what, here i am, and heres how i feel, and if you actually read everything i've said, then thank you. thanks for being one of the few friends who i know i can rely on and trust to be there to catch me whenever i fall. God bless you. I love you all.